I Am Done

 Do you ever have those days where you just can not take any more.  Mine started about 2 months ago. I had finally got all the vet bills paid from last year and was gonna coast along and save up some money for my Personal Property taxes at the end of the year.  Well that was not to be.

First there was the cell phone that died, then the car needed a  valve, then my almost 24 year old a/c died, then I broke a crown, and then there was the annual vet bill.  As if that was not enough.....

Took the Murano in last week for a safety inspection, she is/was 18 years old.  She did not pass in fact she failed yugely.  A whole page of things for many many many hundreds of dollars into the thousands to get her past the inspection.  They had to order some parts and when I went home I was just done.  I seriously could not take any more.  As I sat there I decided I was not going to put more money in the car at her age and that I needed to go ahead and get a new one.  I got to the point where I did not really feel safe driving her cos everything was falling apart.

I went to the dealer the next morning and got a new car.  Well we all know you not only pay for the car but all those extras like processing fee, destination fee, etc etc etc.  You are at the mercy of what is on the lot so I had to pay a little more.  And now I have car payments for the next 4 years. On top of that is a down payment and sales taxes.

Now this afternoon my new a/c is leaking, the area where the condensation comes out in the pipe, so i am waiting for the tech, this better be a free visit cos I have no more money to give.

And our pastor is gone and we have a new one, I will not get into how utterly depressed I felt Sunday knowing our pastor was gone and we have no idea what is going to happen to us>  I have a feeling I may be looking for a new church.

I just want to get in the car and drive and drive and drive and just get away from all of it.  I seriously can not take any more.  

I made ice cream today and think I will drown my sorrows in it this evening.