Fall Already

 How did it get to be that we hit Autumn (Fall) this week and that means DST is not far behind, i hate it.  Anyway my neighbor boys were selling mums to help with out of town costs for their baseball events.  I do not care for them, but I do love the color on this one and it is HUGE.  I can not wait til all the blooms are flushed out.

Sometimes You Just Have to Leave

 I had 3 years of my life at the place I volunteered.  Some crap went down this summer and it all turned into such a negative place that I had to leave.  I would have gone there forever until I could not anymore, but sometimes stuff happens and you find you have to let it go for your own health and sanity.

The sad part is I will not be dressing Scrappy any longer. I have my own Scrappy that I use when I make clothes for the store one.  Seems like lately Scrappy keeps getting moved and stuff ends up on her table and when I come in I have no idea where she is.  They do not seem to care, so another reason to leave.

So what do I with the house, well I will finish it and keep it for my own Scrappy. I have so many ideas for Holidays, etc, clothes, etc and I do not have to worry about people stealing stuff, yes people would steal stuff i put out.

It is time to move on and God will find me something else to do.  Meanwhile I am getting some things done around the house and enjoying being home and not worrying about whether I did something to piss off the snowflakes. 

Hermione Grace

 HG would have been 23 today.  I got her from my secretary at work who had found her under her deck. We had a horrific storm and unfortunately her mom never came back to get her.  She did not want a kitten so I took her. Had to bottle feed her for a few days and she grew into a big girl.  She could be sweet and ten she could turn on you like a cat does.

She had that Hershey Kiss nose and the little black beanie on her head, she was mostly white with some black, I should have called her Holstein after the cow breed.  

 I miss you girlfriend and someday I will be with you again.  Leave Bucky alone, granddad will hold you as much as you want as you always loved that.  

Licorice

 I have a new feral been since April 2022 since LilyBug disappeared.  She was so pretty and I wish I knew what happened to her, I was planning on bringing in her.

I named him Licorice cos he has that black shade of black licorice (and yes I do love black licorice).  Right now he stays across the yard from me and we shall how his pans out.

LilyBug: she was a sweet girl.

3 Years

 3 years ago today I lost this little fireball.  Bucky Crookshanks.  She had liver cancer and it came on so fast we did not catch it until it was too late. Not much we could have done anyway. She was 16.  She was a sister to Groucho and Smudgey.

She was so onery, did not understand the word no, and she jumped off the kitchen island and broke a bone in her foot. Did that stop her nope she would clomp around the house and smack me in the face when she got on my lap with the cast.  

 When she would hear Charles Payne voice she would run in and jump on the TV stand and watch him, she also hissed when she heard Pelosi.  

I miss her a lot and I no longer have to worry about things getting knocked off the counter.  She is in kitty heaven with her buddy Harry, those 2 were the best of buds.

I Am Done

 Do you ever have those days where you just can not take any more.  Mine started about 2 months ago. I had finally got all the vet bills paid from last year and was gonna coast along and save up some money for my Personal Property taxes at the end of the year.  Well that was not to be.

First there was the cell phone that died, then the car needed a  valve, then my almost 24 year old a/c died, then I broke a crown, and then there was the annual vet bill.  As if that was not enough.....

Took the Murano in last week for a safety inspection, she is/was 18 years old.  She did not pass in fact she failed yugely.  A whole page of things for many many many hundreds of dollars into the thousands to get her past the inspection.  They had to order some parts and when I went home I was just done.  I seriously could not take any more.  As I sat there I decided I was not going to put more money in the car at her age and that I needed to go ahead and get a new one.  I got to the point where I did not really feel safe driving her cos everything was falling apart.

I went to the dealer the next morning and got a new car.  Well we all know you not only pay for the car but all those extras like processing fee, destination fee, etc etc etc.  You are at the mercy of what is on the lot so I had to pay a little more.  And now I have car payments for the next 4 years. On top of that is a down payment and sales taxes.

Now this afternoon my new a/c is leaking, the area where the condensation comes out in the pipe, so i am waiting for the tech, this better be a free visit cos I have no more money to give.

And our pastor is gone and we have a new one, I will not get into how utterly depressed I felt Sunday knowing our pastor was gone and we have no idea what is going to happen to us>  I have a feeling I may be looking for a new church.

I just want to get in the car and drive and drive and drive and just get away from all of it.  I seriously can not take any more.  

I made ice cream today and think I will drown my sorrows in it this evening.

Happy Fathers Day Dad

 I somehow felt you sitting beside me in church holding my hand because our pastor is leaving next Sunday.  This has hit me pretty hard.  He came during the lockdown of COVID, I just lost you and I was stuck at home by myself with my thoughts of dealing with your loss.  Once we went back to church the pastors's sermons felt like they were written to me, during the week I would often go back to something said and dealt with some things.  I was ready to completely leave the church, one organized religion has gone way too far left for me, like they have forgotten what we are all about, and the previous pastor.  I found a purpose in going to church again, dropped some of the groups that were a grief for me and joined a couple that speak to what we are to do be doing as a church.  

Dad, I think you would have liked Tim  and his sermons. We could have discussed them during the week.  I know you will be with me next week as I face another loss in my life.  

Some days the pain is barely there and others it hurts my heart so bad that you are not here on earth any more. I know you are always there for me, I talk to you daily and I know you often reach your arms down and give me the much needed hug from you.  

Some day we can sit and discuss the world and I am looking forward to it. I love you and miss you.  

June Already?

 This morning I noticed the bunny is back.  There have not been any ferals for over a year and I have a ton of clover so maybe they feel safe coming back to the yard.

My tom was up in the window where the mulberry tree was I figured he was bird watching, nope the little squirrel has found the ripe mulberries and is helping himself to it.  I best get out there and pick them so I have at least a few. 

The tomatoes are coming on, I sure hope the plant does not rot from too much rain. I could use some heat for them.  I love cherry tomatoes, they usually never make it into the house, cos warm tomatoes right off the vine, well there is nothing better.

RIP Tina Turner

 Tina Turner is on her way to heaven at the age of 83. She led a very hard life but managed to pull herself out of it and make an amazing career.  I was privileged to see her in concert a few years ago, and WOW she was so full of energy and the crowd went wild. RIP Ms Turner you deserve a long rest now.  I can only imagine God has booked you to give several concerts to those up there.  My dad always said she had great pipes and legs.  Dad, I hope you get a chance to meet her one day.

Deuteronomy 28

 You need to read this chapter as it foretells what is happening in our country right now. It is all part of the New World Order to destroy the US so we become a 3rd world country and we might be lucky to get bread and water.  Look up the 15 minute cities, look up coinless society, they track every penny we have and if we spend on what they do not want us to spend money on we get our money taken away.  No gas cars, no gas appliances, eating plant based (that stuff is NOT healthy), eat crickets and other bugs, etc.

 Wake up sheeple, they are about to come get us and it will  never be the same again.

 ⁴³The foreigners who reside among you will rise above you higher and higher, but you will sink lower and lower. ⁴⁴ They will lend to you, but you will not lend to them. They will be the head, but you will be the tail.

RIP D36

 From Raptor Resource Project:

We are beyond sorry to announce that bald eagle D36 has died. Bald eagles die and this isn't the first time we've had to announce it. But this feels especially tragic. For almost the first time since we started tracking eaglets from Decorah back in 2011, we won't be following one. We started tracking them to answer one of the most common questions that followers asked: 'Where do the Decorah Eagles go?'. They taught us a whole lot about their lives and deaths in the twelve years that we tracked eight of them.

D36 was eating road kill when he was hit by a car and died. Take it easy and watch for animals and roadkill. We don't know the exact circumstances of D36's death, but slowing down helps keep everyone safe and might have saved D36's life.

D36 hatched on April 8, 2020, fledged on June 21, and was fitted with a transmitter in July. During the lockdown, millions of people watched him and took solace in the little eagle family, high in a tree and safe from the human pandemic. He had far more aunties and uncles than he would ever know and we'll miss tracking him. He is survived by parents Mom and DM2 and preceded in death by sister D35, who died of lead poisoning in January of 2021.

Dodger Stadium

 

#6

 From Raptor Resource Project;

We're sorry to let everyone know that six didn't make it. In reviewing the footage, it appears the gosling hit a branch on the way down and suffered a severe spinal injury. We can remove logs and dead wood from the bottom of the tree, but we can't do much about large living limbs and we aren't going to discourage nesting in N2B. Five out of six goslings survived the jump. This translates to a survival rate of 83%, which is higher than average. It is sad to lose one gosling - really sad! - but the geese we're watching benefit as a whole from nesting on high.

The rest of the family has left the nest area, but new geese are looking at N2B. We've seen them in the nest, floating below the nest, promenading up the stream, and foraging on the grassy banks on each side of the creek. We think that these might be the same geese that challenged HD in N1: of course HD eventually got annoyed and chased them away. We'll see what happens and if we can determine where the parents and goslings went after the leap of faith!

So often our birds make choices that seem incomprehensible to us, but they know their lives better than we do. For you, the broken-hearted nest watcher, I quote Kaeli Swift: “Please, rather than shutting down those deep feelings you have for wildlife…lean into them. Teach your friends and neighbors and children to feel those deep feelings. Because it’s from that space that we can do best by wildlife…”. Thank you so much for taking this journey with us. If you'd like to read Kaeli's blog, follow this link: https://corvidresearch.blog/.../a-letter-to-the-broken.../